The night is long and lonely..

12 more days and i will be on a flight home.. away from this rubbish place that only offer the saddest memories..

The more i know the more disappointing life is. Everything that i have ever known is nuthing more then juz simple lies.. The wait, the chase and all that talks abt being taken care of, is nuthing more then a lie to cover up the stupidity mind and not at all LOVE as we all want to know it. Rage will never want to go down no matter how crazy or demonic i beat myself in sports or training. The need to do something is juz a constant reminder of how rubbish and silly i was to believe that loving someone with all i have is enough to help take away all that is wrong.. The feeling of helplessness and loneliness juz feel the night sky with all this depressing notes.. I am not SAFE..

P.S: din mean to sound like that, but thats how life is and how things are going for me.. Will be fine, at least i have to be!